Joined: Nov. 2011
|Posted: Nov. 15 2011,6:21 pm
For many years I had some personal problems, and a few years ago I decided to start dealing with them. I won't go into the boring details, but part of process included meditation and study of the occult and shamanism. I had little experience, but at the time I wanted to project into the astral, and I was trying a few techniques. One day I was finally successful with a shamanic trance and that was also the day I met who I presume to be Azrael.
I was on a boat in a river, it was very dark. A skeleton approached me, and I felt a deep emotional connection, he also displayed a diamond to me (the shape not the stone). Over the next couple of years I met him more and more frequently, we danced on rolling dunes, ran through the forests, and I also invoked him many times. He always appeared powerful, friendly, and to have some kind of authority in terms of death. Even as naive as I was at first I knew this was not the soul of a dead person. He became like an older brother, a teacher, and a few times a guardian if I became flustered in a trance state. These experiences have become central to my work.
After a while I would sometimes sense Azrael during normal times of the day, seeing him my mind's eye. One day I saw him in the middle of work, and I was wondering why he had come. The next day I heard that my grandfather had a heart attack, but he did not die.
I also began performing some core shamanic exercises (I don't consider myself a shaman), like meeting animal spirits and undergoing the dismemberment ritual. Azrael was often there watching, guiding me through the astral and often strengthening the level of trance. But more often he and I discussed the nature of fear, and ways to face the dark side of the mind in a constructive way.
To be perfectly honest, I did not know who this entity was for some time. Certain perspectives of some neo-shaman and necromancers confused me a little. Some thought this entity was the human form of an animal spirit, but I never thought so. I'm really happy to hear that some indeed have had similar experiences regarding death.
Edited by blackanimism on Nov. 16 2011,12:46 am
Pain is the only real teacher