Joined: Sep. 2008
|Posted: Oct. 24 2011,10:26 am
I guess this is somewhat related to the dark vs. light topic, but I wanted it to be broader then that.
Taboos, for the most part, cause nothing but harm. I would more than welcome anyone who wants to contest this point, but I am going to keep it as that for now to prevent me from writing a few page essay pounding the point home. I find that my spiritual exploration is stunted in part due to taboos. In this day and age freedom of speech and religion seem to be nothing but myths. I guess there are two sides to that coin, but I see way more bad coming from that than good. This is very pertinent to my troubles.
For example, it is taboo to believe something that is not part of one of the major religions. People think your off you rocker. Now I am usually not very concerned about such things, but to be open about being a part of an alternative religion is to be discriminated against. I have no proof of this, except my own feelings and deductions. To cut to the point I guess is that I fear for employment and educational opportunities. I used to fear alienation from my family, and to some extent I still do, they 'tolerate' my religious explorations.. but I get the feeling they'd be worried if they really understood how far a field I have explored, or how much further I would go if I didn't have these fears.
So basically, until I have gotten a solid start on my career and moved out of my parents house (again, had lived free for a few years), I will have to content with keeping my explorations semi-secret. I guess I should clarify, I don't go around shoving my alternative views down peoples thoughts, I just want to be able to purchase and read books of whatever nature I so choose without loosing out on networking and other seemingly trivial (but very important) things. I feel that to be open is to have it weighted against me(likely subconsciously).
Heck even those of alternative beliefs seem judgmental about that which I seek to explore. For example I was talking to some otherkin, in a chat that I had once been a frequent visitor of when I became curious about such things, about coming back on here and they were judgmental about this place. They weren't rude, but they seemed taken aback and somewhat flabbergasted that I would take any interested in something so 'dark' and 'morbid'. I guess I do have a thing for the macabre, but this place transcends that aesthetic appeal. I come here not because the macabre, but because I feel drawn.
I guess this is a bit of a rant, and that perhaps I am a bit of a coward in this way. I don't conform, but I limit my expression.
Does anyone have any recommendations on how to overcome such intolerance?