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Posted by: Elie87x on July 07 2009,1:22 am

Silver wings and starlights...
City streets and only moonshine..
I walk these concrete roads alone
Looking up into the midnight sky..
I can breathe but I can't speak the words
My lips are frozen in my lonesomeness..
You won't hear me complain, for all this pain..
It's all for you..
Because I love you..
Today you taught me how to say goodbye..
But lets be realistic here...
i'll never say goodbye..
So I guess I'll see you later..


The fireworks set off under the pale still moon..
Gleaming down on me where I have no where to hide..
Empty parking lots and abandoned broken amusement rides..
In the house of mirrors I smashed every one of them..
Full of guilt and shame of knowing I'll never get back to you..
Because I love you..
I can't believe you expect me to say goodbye...
Let's be realistic here..
I refuse to say goodbye...
I sware...
I'll see you later..

Tiredless I watch the sunrise..
Another fucking sleepless night...
I hide myself away in the arms of a stoned angel..
Quietly letting my tears slide...
I don't know many people, but I'm glad I found you..
Because I love you...
Don't let anyone find me here..
And I promise I won't say goodbye...
Yes, I'll always be there...
You'll never say goodbye...
I'm here for now...
Yeah, I know...I'll see you later..
So rest in peace...
I'll see you later...


Posted by: Elie87x on July 07 2009,2:04 am

From my veins to the grave....
I flow every part of me as a secret just for you...
In some foolish attempt to bring all thats dead in me to life..
I write...
The candles lit and I'm leaning on the door...
Observing the pitch emptyness..
Scilent abandonment...
Only the darkness to face and to take me once more..
You welcome me, I see you there...
Once you've finished this letter..
I hope you realize, your reading blood through ink...
And you will have embraced me yet again...
In our own sorrow I sweetly sink...
You see? Your not the only one thats fallen...
My heart sought out a sanctuary and resided in the full
astonishment of you..
It drenches down onto the lips...
From my veins to the grave...
It settles out a deep and deathly kiss..
You see? I've fallen for you..
:rose:
Posted by: Elie87x on July 07 2009,2:18 am

I ramble in the midnight hour...
I ramble...I ramble...I ramble...
Thoughtfully or thoughtless?
Hopeful or hopeless?
It's all one, two, three...
Four, five, six....
...six...six...six...
Pick up sticks...
Lay them in a line...
Can you figure out my riddle?
If a raven talks what would it say?
Would it speak of eating the meat of the deceased?
Or spread it's feathers to release a disease?
Forever to befall mankind...

I blab in the midnight hour...
I blab..I blab..I blab...
Yet for once it dosn't sound so bad..
To give to the lesser instead of those who are better..
To hail all that fail and humilate the greater..
Conjour and confront...
Push forward and move back..
To drown myself to death
Is that a fact?
The riddles finished...
That was that...
Posted by: Elie87x on July 10 2009,10:02 pm

Silver faith for all that I've forgotten..
So many past lives, I've drawn them down
Simple sketches forever to haunt my thoughts..
Paste down the flashbacks, cut out the small scraps..
The feral soul of my existance spilled into this journal..
Between it's locks and shafts it is THERE... YOU... will find my name..
You will find my resting place..
Written in blood..


The serpents coil around it's bindings..
Ancient paper spread with lament..
YOU...will bring me back...
But YOU can't find me here..
In all my anger you will reap this revenge...
I will not give birth to this hate and let it blind me all the same.
The story behind these pages will sink into your soul..
And though you have not once ever herd it..
You will cry out the name of God...


Posted by: Morgan on July 11 2009,9:50 am

Trippy stuff!  Keep 'em a'commin'!  :rose:  :rose:  :rose:
Posted by: Elie87x on July 17 2009,3:27 am

The tunes I play...
The words I say...
Can you even hear them?
Or are we just too far apart?
Your take your stand in shadows..
I'm I just another person to you?
Just dying on the otherside?
There in the darkness...
Listen to what's always belonged to you..
My heart is your music box...

Your love is my lullabye..
For my awake...

I push over the cross and it cracks..
And there the maggots crawl...
Thriving on the stone flesh...
On what you claim is impossible..
Eating you alive and leaving nothing at all..
Eating you away...


The tunes I play...
The words I say...
Can you even hear them?
Or are we just too far apart?
Your take your stand in shadows..
I'm I just another person to you?
Just dying on the otherside?
There in the darkness...
Listen to what's always belonged to you..
My heart is your music box...

Your love is my lullabye..
For my awake...

Blood set on stones..
Still black plucked velvet petals off a rose..
They scatter all about on the ground..
A trail to you I follow knowing not...
Your hand was always met with mine...
The bridle bones...
From here on, I take this road alone..
Theres nothing can do to stop me..
Nor nothing you can say...

The tunes I play...
The words I say...
Can you even hear them?
Or are we just too far apart?
Your take your stand in shadows..
I'm I just another person to you?
Just dying on the otherside?
There in the darkness...
Listen to what's always belonged to you..
My heart is your music box...

Your love is my lullabye..
For my awake...

I peer deep into the glistening cosmos..
I wonder how much..
I wonder so much...
Can you still feel me?
Have you changed?
I wonder how you are...
Then I recall, all the things that were never meant to be..
I sit and wonder still..
Sometimes....
If it was meant to be this way...

The tunes I play...
The words I say...
Can you even hear them?
Or are we just too far apart?
Your take your stand in shadows..
I'm I just another person to you?
Just dying on the otherside?
Their in the darkness...
Listen to what's always belonged to you..
My heart is your music box...

Your love is my lullabye..
For my awake...

Guess I'll find out some other day..


Posted by: Elie87x on July 17 2009,4:43 am

The forest breaths...
The shadow speaks....
The skins touched...
The eyes lust...
The toung tingles.

The trees age..
The leaves fade...
The vision dulls...
The wolves howel..
The skin wrinkles..

The Sun dies...
The Moon rises..
The lips are open...
The words are shut..
The fingers mingle..

The fruit rots..
The mold growse..
The maggots eat..
The butterfly thrives..
The life story of all things...
Posted by: AngelicaRHill on Aug. 03 2009,11:13 pm

Simply gorgeous, Elie!  Keep writing... you have a gift of making the reader feel the emotions you portray through your words.
Posted by: Elie87x on Sep. 16 2009,10:17 pm

I lay here still and quiet, teary eyed for no real reason.
The leaves change and it's a whole new season..
They crunch under my feet and I hear a whisper..
Practically choke myself out and force a smile..
The car passing by...
And the rain begins to fall..
I wonder...
And I wonder..
Was it worth it all to have been born?
To just see and share the same disapointments..
Splattered in red, green, orange and yellow..
The world seems so colorful...
But my heart feels black and white...
Making my blood turn gray...
I guess that's just what happens..


I see her sitting there, I hold my head and I close my eyes.
Blocking out the scolds with the radio...
And hating him throughout my time...
I don't want to hate anymore then I have to...
I wish I didn't hate at all...
I wonder..
And I wonder...
Is it so complex to have love in my life?
So much negativity scraping up my positives..
Making my soul scrambled again...
I guess that's just what happens...
Posted by: Elie87x on Jan. 07 2010,8:52 pm

:rose:
   
    In the dark of the night, a distant storm rolls.
      The Raven of the Cave is the one who knows.

                           ..Dies Irae..
                           ..Dies Irae..

      In the dark of the night, a distant storm rolls.
       The Raven of the Cave is the one who knows.
                           
                          ...Dies Irae...
                          ...Dies Irae...

      In the dark of the night, a distant storm rolls.
       The Raven of the Cave is the one who knows.

                 
                       ..This is his story...

             Back in a time when the world was new.
            Gods and Guardians could not be elude.
              Banished in a land of frost and snow.
                 Necromancers are never alone.
             
              Raven of the Cave with lifeless eyes.
                Frightening call and massive size.
           Raven of the Cave with your soulless stare.
                One day you will take me from here.
               
                      ..Raven of the Cave..
                           ...Dies Irae...
                           ...Dies Irae...
                        ..Raven of the Cave..
                       
       In the dark of the night, a distant storm rolls.
        The Raven of the Cave is the one who knows.
                         
                              ...Dies Irae...
                              ...Dies Irae...

         In the dark of the night, a distant storm rolls.
          The Raven of the Cave is the one who knows.

                             ...Dies Irae...
                             ...Dies Irae...

                             ...Dies Irae...


                                  :rose:


Posted by: Elie87x on Jan. 08 2010,10:57 pm

Please don't stone down my heart again...
For I sware, I can not take it...
I'm fully aware...
But I'm never alive...
I may be awake...
But I'm still a sleeping child...
I don't want to take these crystals down from my eyes.
The dissapointment hurts too much...
I may be there...
But I'm still in denial..
Oblivious to the stone lies...
I don't want to grow up...

Falling apart in flames of amber..
Still steaming in the rain...
It's all thats left of me...
All thats left of my broken faith...
I love you to the ends of the earth..
And every damn grain of sand on the shore...
I hide behind these crystal eyes..
In my own little world of flowers and scorn...

Please don't stone down my heart again...
For I sware, I can not take it...
I'm fully aware...
But I'm never alive...
I may be awake...
But I'm still a sleeping child...
I don't want to take these crystals down from my eyes.
The dissapointment hurts too much...
I may be there...
But I'm still in denial..
Oblivious to the stone lies...
Give me a good reason to grow up..

Singing in your shadow..
Starving for your attention...
Lustful and longing...
Deprived from your affections..
Feelings I never felt before...
Feelings I never can control..
There feelings I never planned nor wanted..



Please don't stone down my heart again...
For I sware, I can not take it...
I'm fully aware...
But I'm never alive...
I may be awake...
But I'm still a sleeping child...
I don't want to take these crystals down from my eyes.
The dissapointment hurts too much...
I may be there...
But I'm still in denial..
Oblivious to the stone lies...
Then you never show up...

I'm alone waiting here....
Posted by: Elie87x on Jan. 08 2010,11:33 pm

Beware of the Raven Amasderon...
....Amasderon...
The bird of prey, let us pray...
Pray that he may come swiftly..
Swiftly onwards with his wings of death..
Towards your destination, your destiny..
To where thou is bound.
Where no heavens ever shine.

...Amasderon...
...Amasderon...
Ye hath been warned..
Bird of death, bird of life...
Live the life that is given fully..
When all sins reap retribution...
You are their exacution...
When your nightly feathers flap..
Hearts are frozen still...
You perch your talons upon the grave..
You frighten me, yet I find you fascinating.
You soared into my dreams..
Forgive me, I am in awe of your name..
I whisper it between darkened walls...

...Amasderon..
...Amasderon..
Avian Raven God...
Spare my soul...
Teach me to be steady...
Teach me your story..
As I see you glide over the glistening sea..
The world so wonderfully put before me.
I clutch onto the feather you left behind.
The final embrace..
My final night....

Oh, mysterious...beautiful ..shadow..
..Amasderon <3 ^-^  :rose:


Posted by: Elie87x on Jan. 15 2010,3:22 pm

I've opened my eyes...
Sometimes I wish I could just start over..
....Start over.....
Begin a new chapter, write a new book..
It's the perfect time to begin again...
Sometimes I wish I could just start over..
...start over......
Erase all I've left behind me...
Elude all the pain...
No longer closing my eyes...
....start over....
I've got to start over....

So I just start over.....
And I start over....

Winters ending....
Sometimes I like to imagine I'm starting over..
...start over....
When the warm Sun's on my back...
Caressing it's honey hue on my skin...
Sometimes I like to imagine I'm starting over..
start over....
Erase all I've left behind me...
Elude all the pain...
No longer imagining...
I'm going to start over...
....start over....

So I just start over...
And I start over...

The flowers bloomed...
I've finally started over....
....start over...
I believe in happy endings...
I remember when we were kids...
I've finally started over...
...start over....
Erased all I've left behind me..
Eluded all the pain...
Your face no longer reminds me...
I've started over...
...start over...

So you too should just start over...
And start over....

START OVER...
START OVER...
...game over...
....again....


Posted by: Elie87x on Jan. 15 2010,9:17 pm

You haunt me with your eyes of Amythyst..
Pure transparent ice...
My inspiration..coursing through my viens..
The world has no idea how much I want to share these beautiful things...

The words you whisper in my ear are pure poetry...
Crystaline perfection at it's best...
You wrap my world with purple and black..
Mystic giant withered redwood trees carved with angels...

...glowing sensations for the distance and a cold wintery breeze...

The snow surrounds us, I hear your story ...but when I bite into the apple I wake up from these dreams...

And the passion flower is falling, falling so fast into the frozen icy ponds of tears that mankind has filled so kindly...
With worries that never mattered....

...such a beautiful thing is life...
...tell me, can you feel this...read it sternly......
Relish it, embrace it and bathe in this light...
bask in the sun...draw the vampires away...

The clouds themselves coil with thunderbird sized ravens..
in charcole browns and pinkish grays...

...but the storm is constant...
...such a beautiful thing...

A kiss to you my muse...
...your such a beautiful thing.. :rose:
Posted by: Leilah on Jan. 16 2010,7:21 am

Elie, that was beautiful! Definitely one oif your best yet!  :rose:
Posted by: Elie87x on Jan. 16 2010,4:34 pm

=) ty
Posted by: Elie87x on Feb. 09 2010,12:47 am

whats happened to me?
I'm exhosted, tired, spread out farther then I can go...
I feel so light and breathless, I can't breath yet I can smell the fresh scent of flowers. I hear birds singing, it's strange, they're singing in darkness. The tops of the trees are covered in sunlight, they glow green yet I hear them not...

There is no light pass the tree tops..
Just still darkness and a new strange stunning feeling..
I can't explain it...
It's coming...but what's coming?
Be my eyes, tell me what I'm seeing..
The grass if soft under my hands...
I'm not blind, I'm out of my body...
This is the black forest...

The sunlights warm on my back and there's a tudor cottage, small and covered in hay. My hearts hurting , my heads spinning...I feel numb yet awake. The air is warm and perfect, the dew glistens and shines on unique plants too essentric for me to describe yet I feel like I've been here all my life. Inside, warm arms welcome me here and a shining face. My grandmother? Thats what I think, but those are not her eyes. I know those eyes and yet I fear them as well.
I'm a foolish girl who's afraid of the dark, afraid of being trapped.

I'm always trapped in some ways...
Just still darkness and a new strange stunning feeling..
I can't explain it...
It's coming...but what's coming?
Be my eyes, tell me what I'm seeing..
The grass if soft under my hands...
I'm not blind, I'm out of my body...
This is the black forest...


And that is all...
That is all it will ever be..
Is a black forest...
My own grave...
Posted by: Elie87x on April 08 2010,10:05 pm

He betrayed me...
My only crime was love, deep love...
And he betrayed me..
Spawned the birth of a child through another womans womb.
It wasn't my place, just my doom.
But I'm glad you didn't let me fall so far, my mistique dark angel. I knew you where there and still teaching me.
You exposed the truths and lies, you made me aware..
I thank you...

I send the pain below for a better day when it will rise again.
I cry not, I shed no tears.
He who tried to destroy me, only destroyed so little.
Merely invoked my memmory, a tip pinneedle..
I thank the hand that slapped me...
I thank it for reminding me..
Love is foolish...
Posted by: Elie87x on June 11 2010,8:36 pm

It's something within me....
I can't let it out.
A monster in my womb, a demon in my belly.
The lover on my bed.
The sickness in my stomach.
Blocking in my way, locking the key.
Shattering the crystal, fucking up my day...

It's always at my back, it's always watching from the window.
Waiting for a chance to take me home.

So deep inside of me that it makes me shiver.
Without control, with no contempt..
All my hatred, all my regrets.
It's feasting on me..
Eating me slowly..

When I blink, I remember.
I take breath, never a bow.

Finally it's become clear to me now...

It's all you...
Posted by: Elie87x on June 18 2010,10:36 am

(Random: I just felt like writing this. Out of a sheer good mood and good feeling lol.) It's called an Ode for new begginings.

So it came to pass, my days in shadow have proven themselves worthy.
I've hid in it's arms long enough and felt it's cold embrace. I learned it's wisdom and now I can set down my fine blade. For once I get to slip off this armor and wear a light summers dress. Untie the knot and let the flames of my scalp settle down. I  leave my guard for only a moment during this peaceful time, but I know I haven't really won the fight. I've passed through my share of thorns, thistles and blisters.
Seen many cold cutthroat nights. My share of that world isn't over. Time merely rises, falls and changes as it decends.


 The Dragon didn't get me, if anything he is now on my side.
Not everyday is a battle, not everyday is a war. Life is a blessing.
It is what you make it to be, it is what's been given to you and you got one houndred years to make it into something more. Forsake the money you have, your riches your plunder and your glory can wait. Put down your sword and enjoy the moment. Save your energy for the days when you will have to raise it again.
You will certainly rise with great Spirits!


Let it be known on this passing day. That I have loved and never have loved deeper. Not love any mere man or woman could ever find, and it is far from perfect.
It's the bone of my knuckles, the flame of my fire and a beautiful carving of ice.
With shades of red and blue, pinks and purples, gray scales and brown owls.
You will find no perfection in this world and yet you will find that everything already is perfect, I have looked and learned. It is the dents and eyesoars that make you marvel. Because through them, you begin to understand who, what, where and when we are...
 
                      ...So let it begin...


Posted by: Elie87x on Sep. 13 2010,9:13 pm

Just hold me tight and tell me I'm going to be alright...
Cause I can't seem to breathe tonight...
The storms coming, I can hear the thunder rumbling...
My wings shatter like the glass around us all...
Black pieces, I pick them up one by one..
Each of them sticking into my skin..
All I ask while I'm searching for your eyes..
Am I going to be alright?...

I step lightly on the cold garden stones...
The rain falls and fireflies glow...
I wear this crown, each diamond is a burden on my head..
A fight for my family, a fight for my friends...
Everything I believe, it all turns so slowly...
All I ask while I'm searching for your eyes...
Am I going to be alright?...

I'm still searching for your eyes....
Posted by: Morgan on Sep. 14 2010,4:48 am

I just read this thread in its entirety, and I can't believe I missed some of these.  This is great soul bearing stuff, and looking at your posts in 'What's going on in your life', this makes you quite paradoxical.  Here you seem vulnerable, but in the other thread; it's 'DON'T even THINK about messin' with 'Rachael'!  You might not get out alive.'


Posted by: Elie87x on Oct. 22 2010,12:35 pm

I am the beauty of the green earth and the white moon amongst the stars...
You will never read my voice, only hear my words.
Feel them deeply...
Drink from the chalice of silver rivers..
For they flow to you freely in unconditional love...

Let your mind be opened..
Never bite your lip..
Once upon a time started long ago but never truly ends dose it?.
In essence, I will never stop learning, I will never know all things.
I merely learn what I need to know now at the time needed to know it.
Do not believe in me though if you don't have the courage to believe in yourself.

This is the path I've chosen, my everlasting garden is right here...
With my left hand I write words and with my right they are erased.
Only to adjust my mistakes and be written again...
I will admit, I make many, many mistakes.I am in no way perfect.
I never ever want to be perfect, because it's through this imperfection
that I create beautiful things <3

We are all creative beings dwelling in a creative universe.
Where everything is everchanging and nothing remains the same.
We are all allmakers made in the image of God and in return we've made God into many images. Through my creativity I found similar beings..
No longer do I stand ridden with pain in the darkness...
Through that pain I made lemonade..
I stand in my own brightest light...
But do well never to forget, that it was my shadow that brought me here..
Here to this beautiful breath taking place...
I fell in love with his unimaginable eyes...

I've looked into each set of eyes and seen wonderful stories.
Each of them were similar to my own but displayed different ways...
I take pieces of each soul and tie them together to make characters.
It's your stories, your feelings, your essence that they reflect.
Each is an empty shell of wonders waiting to be opened..
But only hands of shadows hold the key...
I play my cards and perform necromancy..

In the end I got everything I've always wanted..
Loving family, simple life, a beautiful lover and true friends...
Who am I to ask for more?
There is no telling where roads lead...
I've said it before, I'll say it again...
I travel where ever the wind may take me...
someday it may take me to you...
Posted by: Elie87x on Oct. 22 2010,12:37 pm

*for morgan: ...I can act as strong as I want lol but in the end I end up being a marshmellow for the ones I love. Plus I'm kind of moody so yeah...ugg I love writing though :D!
I think I may be bipolar O_o not sure...thanks for reading though! appreciated! <333
Posted by: Morgan on Oct. 22 2010,1:57 pm

Understood.  That last one is pretty heavy and philosophical, but on the other hand it is not my personal head-space, so hey. Damn good theme, though!   :rose:  :2bounce:  :rose:
Posted by: RustIronCrowe on Oct. 25 2010,9:33 am

There is some really beautiful stuff in here Elie87x...

:rose:
Posted by: Elie87x on Oct. 28 2010,11:17 pm

ty =) hehe
Posted by: lyliaun on Dec. 12 2010,12:49 am

:rose:  you've left me speechless! you are very good at portraying your inner dance! You should "dance" all the time! :star:
Posted by: Elie87x on April 09 2012,1:44 pm

My mind is a graveyard in midwinter...
Ravens perched on a streetlight...
with a dim dead glow...

Can't you hear me calling an endless call?
Can't you see me falling a neverending fall?

Can't you hear me calling an endless call?
Can't you see me falling a neverending fall?

I'm dying...
Don't leave me dying...
Your not alone...

It never melts away, the wind never fades..
It whispers my name through shadows..
Telling me secrets I'll never know...

Can't you hear me calling an endless call?
Can't you hear me falling a neverending fall?...

I'm dying...
Don't leave me dying...
It's so cold...


He holds out his hands...
A stranger without a name...
Ever still, ever silent...
Yet he says everything needed..
At this point in time...

He hears me calling an endless call...
He sees me falling a neverending fall...

He sees me dying...
He won't leave me dying...
Surrounded by angels in stone...
Posted by: Elie87x on April 09 2012,1:59 pm

Take me back to Christmas and leave me in Halloween...
Easter is a dreaded holiday...

All the little women, all the little children...
I see they're so lost...

Blinded by ignorance because the Sun shines...
The light controls their minds...

But it doesn't control me.
I shine my own light...

Take me back to Christmas and leave me in Halloween...
Because on Saint Patrick's day all daddy dose is get drunk...

The peoples eyes burn with honey liquor...
And for once the world turns...

But I stand still...
High off sugar...

Take me back to Christmas and leave me in Halloween...
Valentines day is a lie...

An excuse for sluts and vulgars to sleep with each other..
Old perverts and hungry vultures without eyes...
Love has died...

But I've loved...
Deeper than the world has ever knew...

So take me back to Christmas and leave me in Halloween...
That is when most people die...
That is where they left me...
I remember them in my mind...

But now they rest...
May they rest in peace...










:rose:
Posted by: Elie87x on April 09 2012,2:13 pm

Dear old piano...
Will you bring me my angel if I play you?..
Will my song be strong enough to bring back my angel...
Of death?...

Dear old piano...
Living life is just...
So alone....
This life is...
So alone...
My life is...
So alone...
Dear old piano...
Dear old piano...
Bring me home...

Everything inside me feels so fragile...
Like a rose made of glass...
When I see his eyes...
I break...

Dear old piano...
Living life is just...
So alone....
This life is...
So alone...
My life is...
So alone...
Dear old piano...
Dear old piano...
What should I play?...

Dear old piano...
What could I say?...

Will nothing I ever do be good enough?...
Am I just destined to be a failure in these eyes?...
What do I have to give?
My soul? My heart? The very blood of my wrists?...
My words? My thoughts?...

All of these are already his...

Dear old piano...

Save me from this sadness...


Posted by: Elie87x on April 09 2012,2:25 pm

In the old world...
We used to play in the dark...
At a better time...
I could call your name and you'd appear..
Not as mere shadow but a being..

Long ago I was beautiful...
You were always there...
My shadow...

Happiness was a field filled with wonders...
Angels filled the world with green and gold...

Now I feel...
It is only dust and shadows...
All I have now...
is dust and shadows...

Somewhere in my heart though...
I know your there...
Your waiting for me to come back...
Home isn't here...
Posted by: Morgan on April 09 2012,5:49 pm

Nice to have you back.  I liked them both.  I'm personally not in that headspace, but I can understand.  Are you OK?  Or were these inspired by a personal tragedy?
Posted by: Elie87x on April 09 2012,8:39 pm

lol is it that obvious something has gone somewhat wrong with me personally? Yes, I'm alright. I just go through periods of a deep sadness sometimes unfortunately, and my sadness inspires me to write mostly. Sadness and tragic feelings are my muses I'm starting to notice. when I'm happy I barely feel like writing anything, I end up wanting to go shopping, going out to eat or walking. But when I'm sad, there comes the poetry. Sometimes I'll remember things , such as past life memories or modern events (yes, I believe I've had a past life or some event of some sort before I was born. Either that or I'm just very imaginative I don't know honestly) Either way it makes me sad and I pull out my black raven feather and ink bottle, out goes the poetry. Sorry if it seems worrisome or depressing. But I sure feel better once I put it down. MUCH better, and things go better around me. Holding it in, pretending it's not there and not talking about it just makes things worse for me spiritually I've noticed.... strange self therapy huh? :p sometimes things do bother me though. -shrugs-
either way, thank you for listening. :)  :rose:


Posted by: Morgan on April 10 2012,5:51 am

I work the same way, dude.   :eyemouth:

Unfortunately I've been very uninspired as of late as far as my art goes; both literary and visual, but I have the feeling I'm finished with it.  I also feel there is little time left here, but this is a good thing.  If you did a bit of political research and lived in the Bay Area, you might think the same.  And we've been having these lovely little radiation spikes, and I'm looking so forward to something 'REAL' happening soon.

< http://blog.alexanderhiggins.com/net2....ph.aspx >

Now, if only we go off the chart like Bakersfield, and stay there.

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Posted by: Kkaospixie on May 29 2012,10:17 pm

Elie, I loved reading your poetry! I as well struggle with depression, for years.. and writing is an *excellent* outlet for it. Get it OUT!!!  :rose:
Posted by: Elie87x on June 02 2012,11:03 pm

:) thank you so much.

Sorry if they seem a little emo >.o

It just really helps to have somewhere I can go :) and write as I write without being judged on just what it is and not how I feel.


Posted by: Elie87x on Aug. 04 2012,6:43 am

(ok so I'm in one of my sad depressed states, so I have the ability to write finally. Great to know my writing only comes in tears right? That's why I call it blood through ink. I may as well be bleeding )

When the thunder roars it speaks your name.
It holds me close and lets me know your here.
When I feel alone, you send the rain to hide my tears.
I wear a mask..
Your the black umbrella overhead..

When the bell tolls..
I'll meet you again someday in Winter..

I tell myself..

I follow your footprints in the snow...
Hopeful they'll lead me home..

Somewhere I belong in a dying world.

For now I can only lean on your statue..
A poor depiction of yourself..
In a ray of humiliation from me..
My own stupidity has caused this..


I suffer the blistering cold with each step..
Following you to each and every end..
Simply singing an ode..
Swinging...

Like lovebirds, I've never told anyone..

I'd kiss your lips always, even if they were covered in frost or made of stone..

Watch how I go...
Posted by: Elie87x on Aug. 04 2012,7:00 am

Milford MA.

I miss you...
You were a little town I lived in.
I didn't really appreciate you.
I thought you were boring.
Always rainy..
Even depressing.

You always had so many graveyards and churches.
You were always so humble and welcomed anyone into your home.

Now I live in a place that's beautiful as can be but lacks so much freedom.

I used to be able to wander deep in your woods.
Now I'm stuck in suburbia..
Surrounded by people I cant stand, even hate..

Reflecting back, I should of had more respect for my past.

I shouldn't of left so eagerly.

Milford MA...

This poem may come off as stupid, even ridiculous...
But I feel guilty for the way I judged you...
I judge many it seems..

The sun may shine here...
The birds may sing...
The storms may be strong...

But they don't carry something that I've lost...
I don't have the same freedoms..

I miss being able to just chill...
Listen to the people speak...

People here hide everything...

Bleh...

Miss you, milford Ma ..
Posted by: Morgan on Aug. 04 2012,10:05 am

Both of the poems really speak to me.  I also wrote my best when miserable, though I'm rarely miserable any more if ever.  Note I don't write anymore.
Posted by: bloodofazrael752 on Oct. 25 2013,7:31 pm

Ur words are inspirational keep spreading the my father is happy
Please stay now pray till the day azrael takes ur hand helps u stand. Ans guide u to anthor place summerlands to play AMORTE
Posted by: Elie87x on Nov. 17 2013,2:27 am

thanks :)


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