I came in contact with the energie of death quite by random acident... or at least that is what I think.
I have been training karate for going on 13 years now, and my master is a very spiritually enlightened person. He has tought me how to use my mind to acomplish my goals. In my early years I was a child who was... well let's just call it not popular, and I wanted desperateley to be popular, so I tryed everything from dressing the way the "popular" kids did to trying to act that way. Because of this I think I was no stranger to the feeling of sadness and faliure. It took me a long time before I started not caring what people thought of me, and what cought my attention then were ways to enhance my mind and learn how to use it more effectively. I have always feelt a strong bond with the night and the energies that surface especially at this time of the day, and I gues he just called for me. One day my mentality had just changed and I feelt happy and "at home" for the first time in my life.
It is interesting to read that other people also have had similar experiences.
Say farewell to the light,
for the darkness beckons.