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Topic: Your allegiance to Azrael, Why you feel an affiliation to the Angel of Death
Leilah
Lady Death


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Posted: Feb. 24 2001,10:41 pm

One of the frequent comments  I get here from newcomers is that they feel an "affiliation" to what we do here and a general "familial" feeling from interactions with our beloved Azrael. So, I was wondering generally what is it that brought you to the realization that Azrael was either "calling" you, or in some way intersecting with your life in such a way that you have made the journey that you have with Him to this point.

Many people also feel that they have somehow found "family" by being with others who also resonate to Him in this way and that they have a part in His "great plan" for the world at large.

How do you all feel about these particular statements and what is your take on all of this?

Part of this question also entails your "certain knowledge" that, that which you interact with is, indeed, Azrael, unmistakenly the Angel of Death and no other.

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"Death stands above me whispering low, I know not what into my ear; Of His strange language all I know is, there is not a word of fear."

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Amorteus Nocturne
Azrael's Childe


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Posted: Feb. 25 2001,5:44 am

  For me, a fascination with death, in all forms, developed at a very young age. I was raised on horror films such as Friday the 13th, The Exorcist, The Omen, Nightmare on Elm Street, Puppet Master, Halloween, and hordes of others. I always noticed that when most people would cringe, or cower in fear... I would be sitting back grinning, a permanent smirk plastered on my face throughout the entire movie. Thus progressing into listening to Metal in my early teens, I was enveloped by even more death imagery. (just look at some of the album covers that the hardcore black and death metal bands have... PHENOMENAL)
  These factors, combined with a curiosity to know and understand the "paranormal" and "supernatural" led me down a path of esoteric exploration. (not to mention my predisposition to "see" and "sense" things others could not, for as long as I can remember) In the unending search for truth, and that "something" that I knew my soul was "devoid" of... I consumed book after book after book of "magick", "ritual", and religious traditions. On a hunt for more such tomes, back in 1996, I came across a little bookstore called "Moon Mystique"... (I know you remember the name, Leilah) ;) wherein I found a "Necromancy" section of about 5 bookshelves. I was immediately drawn to both "Our Name Is Melancholy" AND "The Necromantic Ritual Book". I first picked up the Ritual Book, feeling a "presence", or "energy" around it. I read a few passages, and was almost decided on making a purchase... but chose to keep looking anyhow... just in case. I immediately saw Melancholy, and picked it up, reading an entire page in about 30 seconds, flat... after reading the words, I felt a cold chill touch upon my brow and shoulders. I then closed my eyes, and the book simultaneously, pausing to meditate for but a brief moment. When I re-opened my eyes, I discovered that my entire left hand was black... covered front AND back. (now I've never found any kind of paper or book ink that could bleed THAT much THAT fast) Suffice it to say, I purchased the book immediately.
  The more I read of the book, the more I began to understand many of the "visions" I had as a child. The descriptions of the places between worlds... the way the words in the book seemed to speak to ME directly. I knew then without a shadow of a doubt, that this, indeed had been the one soul watching over me since I could remember.
  In late 1996, October 30th, around 10pm E.S.T. (to be exact) things were confirmed in a far greater clarity, and on a much higher level than I had ever experienced before. I was outside, and began feeling faint, ill for no explainable reason... within minutes of the nausea, my balance also left me... and my body fell to the ground like a sack of potatoes. <thud> Everything grew black... no tunnel of light, no pearly gates... just pure electrically charged, icy blackness. Until this blackness began to form... a voice ringing within my mind, though my ears were deaf to the world and everything around me. The inky darkness coiled around me like a liquid serpent, multiple faces manifesting within it, as graphite on black construction paper. The voice grew stronger, telling me that "This is the time you had foreseen... the time when your body lies lifeless... but yet it is not time to leave it forever. You have things to complete... you must finish what you have begun..." Those words, that feeling, and those faces... all make me certain I have seen a true Angel... a sovereign of solace, and prince of melancholy. What I saw, heard, and felt... I could not ignore... especially when I found out that I had been lying breathless, without a pulse, and completely... dead... for an entire eleven minutes. I have more encounters I have had with Azrael... though this, I believe was the most impacting, and potent in my life. For a time this memory was repressed, and unclear... until I delved deep into my subconscious, recently unearthing the "what happened" in the time I was gone from this world. I knew it then subconsciously... I know it now as fact.

(Edited by Amorteus Nocturne at 5:46 am on Feb. 25, 2001)

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Leilah
Lady Death


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Posted: Feb. 25 2001,3:46 pm

That's a wonderful encounter story, Amorteus! It relates the true essence of His energy quite succinctly! How wonderful for you to have experienced that!

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"Death stands above me whispering low, I know not what into my ear; Of His strange language all I know is, there is not a word of fear."

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Samaelz
Disciple of Death


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Posted: Feb. 25 2001,10:37 pm

How interesting Amorteus Nocturne! I feel certain energys around dead bodies. There either protecting themselves or awaiting the right person to help assend them to the unknown after they have died. And yes, much power is lurking in the black book "our name is meloncholy" not to mention the ritual book is a strong atraction towards personifications and basic steps into the westgate.

And I've always had a strong connection with the death entity example Azrael the angel of death at an earily age myself and attraction to the graves.

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RevDellamorte
Azraelite


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Posted: Feb. 26 2001,6:09 am

All I can say is I am what I am. I feel that which I truly feel. I have always been and always shall be.... with Azrael. :cool:

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Amorteus Nocturne
Azrael's Childe


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Posted: Feb. 26 2001,5:44 pm

  Aww, c'mon Rev... you always seem to be a man with many words. Enlighten us a bit... I think that after spelling out such a story in detail... that you could grace us with more than a one-liner. ;) As my one English teacher used to say... "Details, I want details, man!" :deal: This should be the place for us to truly share what we have felt of Him and through Him... We've got to set an example for the newcomers that an experience with Azrael is truly something to share... and not to be something that one would be stingy with, or witholding. ;)
  But I digress... not meaning to pick on ya Rev. but I do feel fairly strongly on this issue. I'm a Cancer, so sue me. :laugh:


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DOVUS OPERIOR
Lost Soul


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Posted: Feb. 27 2001,11:33 am

I had some encounters with Azrael in my past and i start my
own reaserch,after that i discover your site so here i am!


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Kathleen
Lost Soul


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Posted: Feb. 27 2001,12:00 pm

I have to refer back, once again, to my affinity for wakes and funerals as a child. I not only enjoyed them, I felt comfortable with - and comforted by - a close proximity to dead bodies, either at the funeral home or in the cemetary.  

I remember one time when I was a teenager, an older friend of my parents died and I said I wanted to go to the wake.  My mother thought it odd since I didn't know the man that well.  Without thinking, I responded, "I love to go to funerals!" My mother gave me an odd look, but let it go.  Even though visiting the dead is an important ritual in our culture (New Orleans Catholic), the idea of enjoying funerals was somewhat foreign to her (her loss).  And yes, I did attend the wake.

It wasn't until many years later, when I investigated the "purple house" on Magazine Street (Westgate) that I understood what, or rather who, I had been attracted to all those years. Meeting Leilah and Daniel, and getting to know Azrael better has definitely changed my life in a very positive way. :darkangel:

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TheHeathenDJ
Lost Soul


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Posted: Mar. 01 2001,10:18 am

I was ALWAYS the "Heathen".  It's what my late grandmother called me.  I'm not sure why.  "Visions" as my mother calls them, run down her side of the family tree.  I had an Algebra teacher who called me MANY names, but most often "Lucifer", as it plays off my given name.  When I went to war, the scythe decorated my helmet.  It was a state of mind.  Nay, a state of grace....

When I left the military and went on about my life, I was reminded about my "Guardian Angel" (The joys of a Catholic education!)  I came to the conclusion, based on the way my life works, that MINE is Azrael.  

One of the few outward signs that I am Goth (at 50...) is my ring, a silver 3D image of Azreal that we call the "Grim Reaper"  

Summating, I will be allegiant to Azrael, as Azrael has been allegiant to me.

The Heathen DJ

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Columbine
Mortal


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Posted: Mar. 01 2001,3:37 pm

I cycle energy (chi, prana, ki, ba, life-energy, The Force, whatever you want to call it) really fast, and I change just about anything I come anywhere near.  I used to think I was just "hyper" or carried a "personal chaos field" wherever I go - so, of course, I look to Azrael for understanding.

One day I found the wings from a sparrow that had otherwise been designated "lunch" by some cat, and decided to make myself an angel doll.  I painted the doll white, and made a robe that I burned a bunch of holes in as if the angel had just been through a meteor shower, added lightning-struck hair, and designated my angel "The Angel of Narrow Escapes."  Around then I stumbled across the printed Azrael Project Newsletter and submitted a couple of poems.  Then I found a book of angels that didn't list an Angel of Narrow Escapes, but did have an Angel of Precipices named Doumah:  The Angel of the Silence of Death.  Things all started falling together, and when I first contacted Azrael (very casually, not in ritual) just to say "hello, are you there?"  Azrael replied "I have always been here, I am a part of you that nothing can ever take away."  I totally lost it; cried my eyes out I was so happy!  Here was someone who does on a grand scale, with souls, what I do with individual people's lives and perceptions, someone who I could always trust as a friend, a "big self" to my little self, a guide who isn't subject to my short temper and can help me keep from flying off the handle or worrying about what people think of me.

 
Azrael is everything I wish I could ask of a friend, but I know better than to expect of a human.

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