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Morgan
Owned by Donn & Than


Posts: 9124
Joined: May 2004
Posted: July 26 2017,9:38 am

Cool!  You made it out alive!  To a forum that has one foot in the grave now.  Maybe you can help me bring it back.  What's happenin', soldier?

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NAMASTE, AND MY VASUKI LICK YOUR NOSE!

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Nightcrawler
Azraelite


Posts: 761
Joined: April 2001
Posted: Aug. 04 2017,12:56 am

Everything is going about as good as it can.Sadly or greatly,I've finally retired from being a soldier.But it is hard to forget that I'm not that person anymore.Especially when there is so many people that need help out there in this crazy world.It's hard being a full time civillian....haha.

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He That Crawls The Night,
      The Nightcrawler
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Morgan
Owned by Donn & Than


Posts: 9124
Joined: May 2004
Posted: Aug. 06 2017,9:48 am

Well, get thee to 'what's going on in your life', and post away.  Yeah, this is a crazy world; and being a political researcher, me thinks everything is gonna be topsy-turvy in a matter of months.

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NAMASTE, AND MY VASUKI LICK YOUR NOSE!

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darkus markus
Sith Lord


Posts: 1086
Joined: July 2002
Posted: Nov. 14 2017,2:56 pm

Nightcrawler, as of late I have been internalizing some kind of psychological mechanism that permits myself to co-exist with me.  Me is really, really screwed up and whenever he becomes my dominant personality I am lost in a whirlpool  of phobic obsessions, mandating that I either go walking or driving in a perpetual state of confusion and terror.  That can go on for days on end.  I have always thought that the emotional state of me was an unconquerable foe that myself and I would always be subjected to.... but I have gradually to just recently discovered that the other parts of the personage that make up Darkus Markus can be conscious side by side each other and as this construct of self evolves I am hoping that each part can actually assist the others instead of one type of personality stubbornly insisting upon being the dominating factor to the exclusion of the alternates.  Thanks for serving my country to the best of your ability.  I can't imagine what it must be like to have to go from combat mode to civilian, but I do know what it is like to be at war with what I suspect is a lifetime of self-inflicted terror.  Self mortification.  I'm thinking it is possible to set up the most stealthy system of personal suffering that unfortunately is hard wired to maintain its existence at the expense of the host.  I do not understand however, why this mental state has not killed me off yet.  I still seek a higher calling but I am compelled to admit that I am a mental cripple and I am running out of time.  Did you hear that, higher calling?  We have to deal with physics here, I beginning to realize that I will be phased out of this dream sooner than later and I am soooo suspicious of the next realm... what life seems to be all about is learning to walk through hella so you'll know how later.  You are more than likely well on your way to being prepared for this contingency.  I think Morgan is too.  I am hoping that you will stick around.

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bright dark days
dark bright nights

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