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Topic: Cherish the days..., ... of innocence...
dnekm
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Posted: May 15 2014,7:44 pm

What the title says... Cherish those days when everything was new, and you did NOT know things were impossible...

For that is when you can achieve things, that you can experience things that will change you forever....

You can, and will, experience that which is later deemed impossible. And through mental conditioning be able to "write it off" as experiences go...

Unless you have a certain, twisted mindset that focuses on such things...

Then, you have a choice... Keep silent or not. Go mad or not. Share and be damned. Be private and be damned.

For the choice is not a choice.... The lights behind your eyes will spark with cognizance, and yet you cannot share these things readily with anyone else.

If you are lucky, you may find someone else who shares this. If you are unlucky, you may not...

Cherish and explore those days given to you, when you know no boundaries, no limitations.... Open to all, and all will show itself.

Take that, shroud it, nurture it and let it grow and become something you can grasp later when the world has beat you down and you are dead inside...

For those initial, pure instances of discovery of the relationship between you and the universe are what you are. Unsullied, pure and free of any outside influence.  They are you.

And you are NEVER alone.....

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Samaelz
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Posted: June 14 2014,3:35 pm

Not to be rude but can you elaborate more? You can always pm me. Tell me more about what helps see you through OK? I'm still stuck and need to find happiness some how. Lifes only temporary here ithis world. I'm almost 40 years old and lifes flying by so fast & I can't seem to get a grip. I'm going to see a psychologest soon & I'm hoping for the best... Nothing is working yet to improve my situation and I'm reaching out for help.. . Never alone? I'm so isolated Daniel tell the spirits and Azrael and the lady to give me some company okay? I'm missing something in my mind to charish each and every day. I don't want to die an unhappy young man. Unfulfilled, meaning less life. ..  I don't know what to do.

Edited by Samaelz on June 14 2014,9:52 pm

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Samaelz
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Posted: June 14 2014,9:37 pm

Daniel ? Are you there my fellow mystery?

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Samaelz
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Posted: June 16 2014,4:58 pm

Thank you an angel did visit me :)  he was very friendly. Wasn't very talkative thoe. He knew me and said he was an angel I think he might have said a dark angel but I'm not sure. Of course I couldn't see the angel just heard a few words and he left right away like the I am did years ago. don't know why they take off so quickly. Were I'm at in life or stuck in life its impossible to charish my life presently. Finding happiness is still I'm at a loss. I'm afraid I'll be a broken man a bloody wretch for unfortunately the rest of my miserable life.  :(   now I got Ozzy's Goodbye to romance song playing in my head. There is no way out of this suffering except by some miracle. Dear GOD, haven't I gone through enough? Please, let me out of this #### so I can move on! Pain is not pleasure and insanity is not sane for me. Let me go already! What evil have I done to be treated in such a manner? I can't take it anymore! You must kill this agony inside me! I dont want to accidently kill myself. You know I wish miracles came true.

Edited by Samaelz on June 21 2014,5:09 pm

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Lucid Kaos
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Posted: June 21 2014,8:06 pm

Ozzy! :headbang: Stop waiting for a miracle...BE the miracle brutha! Looking for happiness in the external will only leave you feeling short changed and will also reinforce the victim mentality, which in turn will lead to a continual onslaught of pity parties. A vicious cycle indeed...been there and done that. Glimpses and moments of happiness can be had in external things, but for the most part they are more like signposts and reflections of things internal...As above, so below yeah?  Leave the past where it belongs and move forward. Decide to stop being your own worst enemy...it can be rough but you know that we are here with you. Tear down the illusion of limitations...at the end of the day most of the limits we perceive are self imposed. Break the cycle my friend.

The center is everywhere...the circumference nowhere....

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Samaelz
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Posted: June 21 2014,9:32 pm

Thanks but I can't do it alone. I'm a lonely deadman without love! And its crippling without that special someone. I wake up in tears from dreams because shes not all there for me yet or its just wishful thinking that makes me scream in such melancholy! Separation from love is a slow & painful death not being able to work things out. I will never be the miracle without the miracle! It doesn't mean that I'm a bad man. I help people like a good Samaritan if I know what to do. I get altruistic with people and harm none and I tend to avoid conflicts with others. I like to work with people instead of getting ugly with them. I don't consider this a miracle thoe its just humane human effort. And a miracle is like magic spiritual & supernatural. Its cruel of the USA to always make others so jealous of others. Weed should be legal everywhere! Not just in Colorado.. .

Edited by Samaelz on June 23 2014,1:23 pm

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Samaelz
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Posted: June 24 2014,11:26 am

How? What kind of information am I lacking? It must be my greatest enemy my mental illness. O' no its  robbing me blind! Its getting worse every year that goes bye. I'm being counciled and like religion its of no avail. Woe! I guess I was meant to be unhappy. So much misery awaits me everyday. Nothing can save me. Won't anybody wish me happiness before I die this way?.. Please, i love you people! Dont let love go too waste.. .  :darkangel:

Edited by Samaelz on June 24 2014,6:03 pm

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dnekm
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Posted: July 27 2014,7:08 pm

Sam,

Probably the best thing I can tell you is to stop looking for confirmation outside of yourself. Be content with who and what you are. It is not going to change.

You, can only be yourself. Not what others want you to be. Not what others expect you to be. Not what others hope you to be.

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Samaelz
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Posted: Aug. 06 2014,7:03 pm

Well I don't want to bring anybody down but yes I am myself and I am aware that I won't be popular and may have some enemy's but I don't look for fights or start trouble. I like people. I don't hate them but there are assholes and I try and ignore them. I don't like conflict. I wish for a utopian society... I love you Mr. Kemp! I look up to you. Your a good soul.

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dnekm
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Posted: Aug. 08 2014,6:58 pm

I would hope that all intelligent people wish for a utopian society, but the reality is that there are many, many others who do not. They just want a society that is exactly like themselves....  :banghead:

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