Disciple of Death
Joined: Feb. 2001
|Posted: April 30 2011,1:31 am
All these crap jobs spewing out off the end of your nasty cigarrette!
When I used to work for Wal-mart it appeared to be kind of enjoyable at times I liked helping others find things they needed from the store. Fortunatly, there was only two customers during the year I worked there that assumed I knew everything! Swearing and cursing at me with intense foul words so I had to kind of bite my own tongue not to swear violenty right back because I would lose my job and being fully aware that two wrongs don't make a right.
These humans insisted that I was ignoring what they were not finding! Well, I still rest peacefully knowing that I did my best for them and I tried to guide them to a manager but no the manager wasn't good enough for them so I had to continue trying so hard to reason with them -but no- I was their target to vent at for the moment untell they got so furious their level of energy dropped and away they finaly left complaing more quietly and slower paced at something else in the sky as they drove away with garden wood chips of mulch and decorative stones.
I feel - that I would have perferd to continue working for Wal-Marts Lawn & Garden dispite of being treated like crap with verbal abuse from customers because it doesn't happen that often VS being a janitor you get crap from everyone every day and the more crap I'm exposed to daily realy makes me feel like white trash!
But, worse then that it's better then being a prostitute/whore to survive in this world on my own so part of me is greatful to end that life style respecting myself more for I lived in it for like five years of my life so messed up given free drugs to go through the #### of pleasing others for there disturbing and comfertable lie! ####, I wasn't even paid well in the frist place in that disrespectable disgusting career 'cuz at that time, drugs were more important to have around to blindly alter my consciousness away from reality that I was starting to have to pay for drugs because I needed more then what they could afford because of their needs to keep me their cheap whore because I'm not a flawless blemish free anatomicaly correct humanbeing so thats why I wasn't ever treated like a rockstar or supermodel pornstar -if I was physicaly perfect, I wouldn't have become the cheap whore I used to be. I'm alot better to myself then I used to be but, I still drink as much as a rockin roll star because of the time I've given myself to drink or not to drink and never yeilding to give anyone the right to take my choice away from me!
I often wonder why alcohal has a different effect on me then most other people - which makes me somekind of exceptional drunk because I realy enjoy feeling peaceful & respectful of others because airnt we not all going out for the same ol' reason to have fun mingling here and there with others with out feeling as if were in any danger so we can unwind and releve ourselves from stress and anxioty from a hard days work and expect to return home safely just like everyone else? I believe so!
But these days I have hermited myself away from bars because you get people inside that want to blame alcohal and other people for their rude and disrespectful behavior. Which is a bounce of bullcrap right? Well I think so.
- is it just me that thinks some people just don't understand that drinking isn't a race to win and see who can drink the most in one night? Thats why you see people passing out so quickly because their tolerance is so low when it comes to drinkers who have been drinking alcohal for many years in a row.
If you don't make much money to do other activities well I think your kinda stuck on the bottle or smoking cigarettes just because there legal drugs we are still condenmed by the white house along with high sociaty and all other religions for that matter.. . Sad but true.
Edited by Samaelz on May 18 2011,5:32 am
The infernal empire can "kiss" my swiss chesse Dracula!