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Topic: Sick and tired of it...., for whatever you're sick and tired of
Leilah
Lady Death


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Posted: Jan. 25 2011,6:14 pm

What are you being trained for, Sammy?

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"Death stands above me whispering low, I know not what into my ear; Of His strange language all I know is, there is not a word of fear."

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Samaelz
Disciple of Death


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Joined: Feb. 2001
Posted: Jan. 25 2011,6:43 pm

I don't know yet.. I'm still looking at the T.C. program magazine. Theres plenty of classes to take - i just don't know which.

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The infernal empire can "kiss" my swiss chesse Dracula!

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soulofwinter
Necromancer


Posts: 118
Joined: Oct. 2007
Posted: Feb. 08 2011,10:01 pm

allergies...ugh!
nasal passage swelling(of my already huge honker), face-lock, and horrendous mouth and throat swelling...geez it's like my own body's trying to kill me...

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"In the dark of night,
or under blazing sun.
In Sorrow or in Joy-
Ever I will be with you.
And when this life falls away,
I will lead you Home."
---Anubis---

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soulofwinter
Necromancer


Posts: 118
Joined: Oct. 2007
Posted: Feb. 28 2011,8:56 pm

mystery illnesses....

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"In the dark of night,
or under blazing sun.
In Sorrow or in Joy-
Ever I will be with you.
And when this life falls away,
I will lead you Home."
---Anubis---

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soulofwinter
Necromancer


Posts: 118
Joined: Oct. 2007
Posted: Mar. 04 2011,8:52 pm

the same bloody mystery illness....arrggghhhh!!!!!!!

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"In the dark of night,
or under blazing sun.
In Sorrow or in Joy-
Ever I will be with you.
And when this life falls away,
I will lead you Home."
---Anubis---

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Samaelz
Disciple of Death


Posts: 2584
Joined: Feb. 2001
Posted: April 20 2011,4:24 am

Well cheez puffs*my job stinks! I loathe them - that poo right over the lid of toilets. I'm forced to clean them -everyone -YUK!*even off the walls.

-cleaver slavery-the curse of the pharohs

I am so underpaid to do this kind of slave crappy work - again and again.  :p  

I feel like shit.. I hurt - I need a shower* :pissedoff:

American Egypt all over again!  How the hell are we gonna get outta this? We are in way over our heads - were all in this together yah know.?.

Edited by Samaelz on April 20 2011,4:51 am

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Samaelz
Disciple of Death


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Posted: April 20 2011,5:36 am

Woe, sweet jesus*

Oh my goth!  I'm still awake! Me my lil note book on the world wide web and listening to the band named Emperor in my apartment.

I totaly got so high from friends tonight.. And i have time off from the work HA! Watch me burn out haha hah

I am getting a bit one toke over the line

stoned, twisted and completly sideways mann

Edited by Samaelz on April 20 2011,5:45 am

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darkus markus
Sith Lord


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Posted: May 22 2017,5:01 pm

phobic attacks.... :cussing: I am so sick and tired of them.  they never give me the slightest bit of warning
 :pissedoff: I don't know how to stop them and they never ever seem to let me go.... all of them are associated with memory loss and losing things and they are just terrifying.  Why is God doing this to me?  why does this have to be my specific curse? I am convinced I do this to myself through a subconscious mechanism that I am at a loss to understand; so much precious time wasted!  All my life I've had to put up with this.... I can't just blow them off.... I dwell and obsess over each and every little thing I somehow lose track of, break out into an instantaneous soaking hot sweat and become terrified.  I don't know how long my body and mind can take this without folding.  no doctor, no medicine, no book, no technique has ever really helped.  I only convince myself that they do after I've managed to end one, only to have another take its place.  it's like they stand in line so each can fill the terror slot.

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bright dark days
dark bright nights

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darkus markus
Sith Lord


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Posted: Dec. 12 2017,3:25 pm

17 degrees Fahrenheit outside right now and the wind is constantly blowing... it is going down to 6 degrees tonight.  You would think this to be a good time to find a hole to hibernate in but all I seem to be able to do is to just drive between my two places with about 25minutes spent at each when the panic takes over and I have to get back in the truck and start driving again... there is always one more vehicle on the road behind me and guess where?  2 inches from my rear bumper.  If I speed up so do they.  If I slow down they will not pass.  I am constantly given no quarter on the roads and one would think that would be enough to get me off the darn things, but the claustrophobia and panic at either of my places is far worse, I blew off seeing my new shrink until the first of the year and am totally completely broke.  I have no life and am afraid to die for obvious reasons (I am utterly worthless).  My talents are buried underneath 16 tons of guilt and all the phobic shoite that my mind has conjured up to avoid thinking about what an idiot I have been and still am.  I see no open doors; I see no doors at all.  I have become almost totally dysfunctional and have shed all my delusions of grandeur.  I have no respect for myself whatsoever... I see an old man pulling himself across an intersection in a wheelchair and instead of thinking "there but for the grace of God go I",  I am thinking about how lucky he is to have the dignity to still be sane.  He'll probably die completely at peace with himself warm on his cot at the salvation army while I croak in a padded cell in a straightjacket while pissing myself.  I have to find a solution.  I am desperate to find a solution, but I am beginning to think that I never will.

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bright dark days
dark bright nights

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