Joined: Feb. 2001
|Posted: Oct. 11 2008,9:20 am
I think when Adar talked about "growing up", he meant on a more spiritual level. I, like you, was an only child, and when my mom died some 30 years ago, I took it hard as well. I "saw" her three days after her passing, and I never saw her again. Souls pass THROUGH our lives, but they are not ours to keep. Each must move on and evolve. EVENTUALLY this is what she will teach you....how to evolve and more forward with your life.
Where you are right now, is adrift in your grief, your OWN pain of loss. BUT, you MUST think of THEM, and what they gain. They are free of this flesh. They can evolve. They can move on. They can truly become what they were always meant to become, whether that involves reincarnation, or remaining pure energy, that, only time will tell.
I can tell you THIS, their energy will always be with you. BUT, you must learn to perceive their "messages" in a different way than what you expect. THEY have evolves, so will their communications to you. Right now, you seek the familiar, and because of this, AND your sorrow, they cannot break through to you. Your sadness holds them back from "going home".
If there can be one spark of joy in your life, let it be that you know THEY are together, and knowing that should also tell you...... how could they NOT be thinking of you?
I wish I could soothe you with the cliché that "time heals all wounds.", but it really doesn't. However, the scars make you infinitely stronger AND more wise.
"Death stands above me whispering low, I know not what into my ear; Of His strange language all I know is, there is not a word of fear."