Joined: Mar. 2003
|Posted: July 27 2003,11:26 pm
I just had a very weird dream, and I need help here. I'me trying to figure out what was what.
To sum it up, I had commited suicide, only it wasn't "me" as I am in this life. I was in a beautiful white church, and it was sort of as if the mortals were on the flat floor, like an average chuch, while the spirits (myself included) were in a "stadium seating" section above. I could see "Death" (Azrael), and someone said that he wanted to make sure I was okay, he did that a lot, but didn't want God to know he was there (and not working?) but it seemed to be more of a rough guess on the speaker's part instead of the truth.
What really struck me was a beautiful person in blue/green/white with blonde hair who seemed too beautiful to be real, and very androgynous. I think it may have been Gabriel. I'm not sure, but the entire experience left me shaken all the same. Right before I woke up, I was kneeling in front of a mirror praying to whoever would listen to let anyone considering suicide talk to me if it'd be allowed. It was like a sign or something, or a past life. No matter what, it freaked me out.
Can anyone help me out with this at all? Was it my past, or someone elses? What did it mean?
Dearest, Darling, Dead